Thoughts

A year ago. My life wasn't like this. I thought being alone and having to trust yourself alone is the best way to survive this ever changing world. I realized just now that life wasn't given to us by God just to survive but to live. Live with the people whom you love and care.

More importantly, my naive thoughts back then was a hindrance in my growth. When I throw that naivety, I must say, I don't have any regrets. Maturity came. But honestly, I miss my childish yet playful side. Being rebellious wasn't bad at all for my rebellion helped me grow but being mature is better I tell you.

Friendships. hmm, I also have a few friends way back but now I'm really half-frustrated. Having a lot of friends is hard to manage. College made me an extroverted person.  It's part of my integrity to listen to a friend and to know at least details of their lives. And having a lot friends. to know and to listen to them..... I'm still managing that. I still want to be close with my friends a year ago but I can't give them the exact treatment I gave to them for I have a lot friends right now that I should at least give an attention. ( That's what I always want.. to be an attentive friend whether the quantity will be an infinity)

Heyo Typo

Dear Diary,

Q Y M V P S Z Y
At first when you look at the letters above, it looks like a plain error created by my cat playing around my keyboard but those letters definitely gave me a lot meaning.

You see, it's the name of the girl that I consider more precious than any jewelry. She stands out not only she had a weird name but also the perseverance and beauty she possess. That's Qymvpszy.

I may not be her friend who stayed by her side in terms of long duration but I can't express how blessed I am to have a friend like her.

I don't know if I'll regret having this post shared to her... Anyways I'll take the risk.

Welcome to my blog by the way if you see this Qymvpszy, this is where I post my thoughts. I'll let you have the privilege to peek into this blog.

Back to my description, She's quite a wild kid but it's alright I don't really mind it, I believe everyone needs to loose their worries even just for bit of time. Sorry for my introvert mode at the frosh night. I want to enjoy the night with the 8 of us. BUT I really just don't know HOW. I'll make sure we'll enjoy exploring Star City.

Thank you to Qymvpszy, for the support when I was absent. For the unending laugh she imparted. For the simple moments she has been beside me while walking up and down the APC's stairs.

I really can't forget on what we did today, we ate pizza at Evang. and watched She's dating the gangster. Oh! and also the frosh night.. Pretty busy

I hope that she'll have a wondrous and prosperous life.  May God bless her always specially today, her birthday!

and hey Qymvpszy!

Sorry I cannot tell this to you in person, because you might think I'm angry or I'm in my hugot-mode. If you want to know why I always acted so serious... Well previously, people usually ignore my words. AND. Writing is closer to thinking than speaking.


Your GC friend,

Kathode.


PS: I really have gift for her... Just wait for it. Sorry for my grammatical errors. The context matters.

Hillsong United (Manila Concert)

Deary Diary,

It was definitely a great experience to praise and worship with the music of Hillsong United. The group is really composed of truly annointed individuals. Thousands of Christians gathering in one place!Just. Amazing. I know that everyone came there with the desire to glorify Jesus!

I love the way, the truth, and the life! That's for sure!

Highlights of my summer

Dear Diary,

It's been awhile since I last typed my emotions here. It is 10:13 PM and I feel writing a lot today. My summer has been busy. It is my most productive summer so far. I would like to tell you the stuff that happened to me lately.

April 17-18 : KND Family Camp

My first actual camping. Well... We actually slept inside a classroom but still this is my first camping (that is not sponsored by a school..I've been in a camp before.. Science Camp @ School and I still don't consider that as a camp) This is the real deal. Outdoor activities. Bonfire. Praise and Worship. Devotions. Sharing.

I am really filled up by faith during my 2-day stay at Blessed Hope which is located somewhere in Paliparan. Our topic was about leadership and it focused on the life of Nehemiah.

It was a life-changing experience.

Our team 's name is GG (God's Girls) It is great to get to know them. They are pretty nice. Also, I am inspired by Ate Jen's resiliency which she shared to me. (She is my buddy for that camp) How she overcomes her dimmest days and how God moves in her life... It was touching.

I also love the team-building activities. It was also hard to rebuild the walls of Jerusalem using twigs and leaves (well it's only a semi replica) but I am impressed by how Garche can carry a lot of palm leaves. She's like a heroine figure. Oh well...

I thank God for all the blessings we received specially on the 2nd night of our stay. I am fueled by His presence that night . Every problem was a blur and it was only God that visits my thought box.


It was a refreshing feeling to give praises unto Him. Glorifying His name till our voices may wither.... It feels great to be in love with our God.

The camp may be held during the holy week where usually Catholics usually weep. But true Christians won't weep! Christ is alive! He is not dead.

April 19-24 :Lopez Adventure

It was my last minute instinct to join my familyfor a whole week at Quezon. My decision was right I guess? Even though I didn't attend the sunday service for that week. Still, I learned a lot from my vacation at Lopez.

Lesson # 1

Cherish God's blessings

I feel blessed about my situation in life. I live in the city where every resources are available and ready-made. When I experienced the life at the mountains for a couple of days, everything seems so manual. Water. Transportation. Food.

There's no cellphone signal. The only way to catch some signal is to find the right spot and 3 bars is already a miracle which is pretty hard. It is like I'm looking for gold.

I am so blessed to attain such quality life in the city.

Lesson # 2

God created a wonderful nation.Philippines is a paradise in disguise. It has everything to offer specially its nature wonders. When I looked at the stars and the fireflies at night, they are fascinating. Even the gecko's loud noise makes me feel wondrous. So surreal.

Lesson # 3

Share your blessings

My cup for my blessings is overflowing with gladness. My stay at Lopez enabled me to teach the kids my creativity and positivity. I taught them how to dream. Not just dream some random dream.. But to dream BIG. I see a lot of potential in my pinsans and pamangkins. I pray for their wonderful future ahead.

May

So far... I've been active at #Trending. The title for the youth service this May. So blessed to see a lot of young people gathering through the name of Jesus. I hope that their faith and passion will not diminish but it will grow stronger and deeper.

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You see... I'm going to be a  college kid this June.. My summer is about to end.  I am so excited to meet new people/classmates though sometimes I'm a bit introvert for it's been 4 years with the SSC people. It's like for the first time in forever!

I know God will guide me in my path.

Thanks diary for letting me type my thoughts! Good night

Sincerely,

Kat


PS: So blessed! I can't contain it!

11:38 PM 2014-05-19

Unforgettable Day

March 24, 2013

Dear Diary,

This day really tested my patience. Patience in terms of waiting.

The events that happened today seems so quick yet I can't imagine it happening beneath my own eyes.

As the rays of the morning approached my eyes, I woke up and set myself for school. Graduation is really near and it's my first time attending the practice that mentions all the names of the section (from IV-SSC to IV-23) The cement floor is the troublemaker to one's laundry. That's for sure. As usual, I ended up "yagit" from that 3 to 4 hours of practice. These simple reasons, may cause me to change my mood, but luckily I didn't. Even the teachers who shouted too much earlier at the stage may also change my mood, but I didn't again.

This day was really a battle between my temperance. But this was just the start of it.

After lunch, I spent my hectic hours at the Press office trying to help out in our yearbook. Again, I was tested. I heard so many opinions. Opinions that which my mouth can react anytime. Backstabbing. Such raging words from the mouths of teachers. Yes. Teachers. Working in the Press office is sometimes troublesome indeed. But I kept in mind, "Kathleen is patient." That preachng of Ate Esper, really changed myself a lot. As if my conscience always talk to me. Conscience that always boosts my faith.

Anyways, I went home afterwards. Then I realized. PUPCET results are released today. Another rumble test of patience. The website was so slow. But as the saying goes, it is worth the wait. I passed the PUPCET even though I finished the exam an hour earlier.

But hey. This was just the rising action.

CLIMAX: Supposed to be, Bes and I will chill at Mcdo. Well, it ended up as weird waiting marathon. First I went to V-Central, I played some arcade to kill some time and to free myself from worries. ( It's only 6:30pm) We will meet supposedly by 7-8pm. Then, I went to RFC again to chill, but I saw some group of aged woman doing aerobics( 7pm). They are pretty cool actually. I went to Mcdo to eat, but still she's still not in the van according to her text message. I played chuzzle, my ultimate boredom killer. Bes showed up like about 9 pm. She was late. But I do understand the reason that's why I find myself patient enough to wait her that long. It is unusual to me.  

At the end of the day... She and I went home.. (pero hinatid niya muna ako even if its late)

Moral story: be patient.


KR Gonzales